RachLoss

I was thinking this morning. Last year, I made myself a birthday goal. I’m going to turn 25 this year. Woah. So if I kick it up a few notches, I could be weighing less, and measuring less by June 8th! 4ish months until my birthday. GET WITH IT.

Today I got home, took a nap, then surfed the internet. All of that lounging sure makes it harder to press play on the dvd player. Just being real here. I don’t know why I was putting it off for so freaking long. It was a 15 minute HIIT workout. 30 seconds of HIIT, 30 seconds off, 9 times. It’s done, and I did it though. I want this. If I want to reach my goals, I can’t let the comfort of the dang couch get in my way. 

Yesterday after my workout, I prepared my dinner for today. Chicken Tortilla Soup! And turned the crock pot on this morning and went to work. Easy. I found it on Pinterest under a weight watchers crock pot recipe pin.

Only 6 points, and super simple. Since my husband is out of town for work, I can have it for dinner all week. Very convenient for me. It’s delicious too. 

I went over 1 point on my points yesterday, but am under 1 today. I really hope this works for me. I have never been good at losing weight before. I’ve got to stick with it.

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Well. I did it. Is anyone even reading this? I DID IT! After not working out since before thanksgiving, I did my first workout of 2013.
It was Turbofire, fire 30. And it was just like riding a bike. I remembered ALL the moves. And I feel good!
I also decided to stick with the free weight watchers app. Why pay when there’s a free option? I’m using “Points Plus Diary” I like that fruits and veggies are 0 points. I’m grazing on some grapes right now :) It’s much easier than counting calories.
Here we go! I’ll take it one day at a time this time around, rather than always thinking about where I wish I was in the future.

It’s January 14th. The middle of the month. And I still haven’t made any sort of “get back into shape/get healthy in 2013” plan. I honestly haven’t cared the past 2 weeks. And now because of that, I’m whining about how I need to tighten and tone my body up. I keep seeing rolls and a chubby belly/love handles every time I look in the mirror. Hate it.
I figured if I got it out of my brain, and wrote it down that it might motivate me to actually get started.

Last time I was here, I made a 6 month plan for myself with the Insanity program. Yep, that was an epic fail. I got through about a week of the program, then thanksgiving came and I was like “eeeehhhh, I’ll start over after thanksgiving.” We’ll that didn’t happen and I was like “eeeehhh, I’ll start over after Christmas.” None of it happened.
It also wasn’t as fun as turbo fire! So I made the excuse that it wasn’t my soul mate workout. But I truly believe that. I just need to do turbo fire! It’s the only workout that I have EVER enjoyed.

I’ve also been wanting to start weight watchers. I used a free app that basically counted points, but it wasn’t the real deal, and it was very ghetto.

I guess my problem is just starting! That’s the hardest part—Getting started.

I just have to do it. JUST DO IT RACHEL! If I would quit thinking about how I need to get with it, and just do it already I’d be halfway there.

But I don’t want to do it just to lose weight/inches. There are much deeper reasons (or goals?). If I list them here, I might be able to visualize my WHY better, and make it less of a struggle to just get with it already. Here goes:
1. If I get healthy, lose some weight/inches I will feel better about myself. I won’t be as self conscience all the time, and I’ll feel good in my skin. (that was like 3 in 1 answer)
2. If I get healthy, my husband will LOVE it! (And so will I!)
3. It will be much easier to get in shape now, before we decide to have kids. That way I will know HOW to get healthy after I need to lose baby weight. Plus, bodies are better at making babies when there’s a healthy body involved.

There. Those are my reasons. That did help. Now I need to research the weight watchers site and see what it’s like. And it’s time to pull out the turbo fire workout schedule and see what’s first.

 So I guess you could call this is an “update” on my fitness/healthy lifestyle journey. I started this tumblr account about a year ago after Thanksgiving, while feeling the fattest in my life. Since then, I have done so-so with this “journey”.

So, I started TurboFire back in March, finished in August. By then I was completely burnt out on that program. I did awesome with it. My results were pretty good, but I could have done another round of the program to get to where I wanted to be in my body. Buuuuut, like I said I was burnt out. Just being real here.

So then I ordered ChaLean Extreme. Eh. It’s good for me, but weight lifting is boring to me. Building muscle is important to burning the fat on your body. I know this. I’ve been doing that program with my mom since August, it’s now November. I’m feeling burnt out on it again……maybe I’m not good at finishing things? 

And everything in between has been crap because I have been EATING like crap. So here I am, right back to where I was a year ago because I like junk food. I LIKE JUNK FOOD! And I let myself become lazy on meal planning, and buying healthy groceries.

And because I haven’t been eating as healthy as I should, I haven’t been seeing results that I COULD be seeing from ChaLEAN Extreme. Blah. I have been enjoying my food. I know that I can still enjoy junk foods every once in a while, while still eating healthy. But I’ve just been all out ENJOYING food, and not caring about what is going into my body. Why don’t I care more?? I want to care! I feel in a complete fitness and health RUT right now. 

I took progress photos today. Because I have been SO anxious to start Insanity. I have been scared to do Insanity, because it’s something I know I won’t be very good at. BUT. I need the challenge. And I NEED CARDIO. Chalean Extreme is great, but there’s hardly any cardio. I know from after a year of trying to lose the extra poundage on my body, that my body NEEDS cardio. If I am not doing cardio exercises, I feel like it’s not worth it. Even though lifting weights are so important, I sweat less with weights, and it makes me feel like it’s not doing anything for me. I know that it is, it’s just a psychological thing for me. Sweating a lot during a work out makes me feel like I accomplished something. And weight lifting IS definitely a challenge, I just need to incorporate more cardio than weights.

Because I have been so anxious to start Insanity, I found it free online. (BAD ME!) I should be getting it for Christmas from my husband. I just wanted to do it NOW! I want to do it now, while I’m motivated to actually do it. And I wanted to be able to do it during the holidays, while I am most likely eating not-so-healthy holiday foods.
Yes. I am going to EAT holiday foods! I know that if I deprive myself of it, it will make myself worse, and I will GORGE myself with so much junk that it will make it even harder to get it off than it was to put it on. But I am going to portion everything. The RIGHT way, not the “holiday foods” way, with giant portion sizes. 

I frustrates me beyond belief that this is a struggle for me. But I know I’ve got to work for it. I’ve just never had to work for it before. It’s only been one year. I am still learning. 
When I grew up, I was always behind in growth, weight, and height. So I was always told, “You need to gain more weight” by my doctors. So my tween self was in heaven because I got to eat junk food and not worry about getting fat! It was the best! Ice cream before bed, gushers after school, anything junk food that you could think of, I ate it - and didn’t have a care in the world. I was supposed to gain weight!!

I weighed 90 pounds in 9th grade. I don’t remember how much I weighed when I was a senior or after. I’m thinking 115 or something. But I didn’t worry or care about my weight. I looked good. I was comfortable where I was. And it didn’t matter to me.

Once I got sick, and had to take lots of steroids to help the sickness go away, all of that went out the window. I gained weight, I was so bloated with water. It was miserable. I hated being inside my body. And once I was off the steroids, I thought it would magically go away. Nope. It took me 2 years after it not going magically away for me to realize I actually had to work for it. So here I am, one year later after that realization that I STILL have to work for it. Old lifetime habits are not going to cut it. I’m 24 now and my metabolism is not what it was before I got sick. And it will keep going down if I am not exercising. It will be an even bigger challenge once kids come along because having babies changes your body chemistry and structure.

I know that when I was “good” at this tumblr thing, I was motivated, I was excited about getting healthy, and I was ready for change. Let’s try this thing again, shall we? 

I wrote down the Insanity schedule, and did the fit test today. I definitely suck right now. There’s a fit test every 2 weeks, so I am excited to see how much stronger I get each time.

Lesson learned from this year: If I’m tired of starting over so many times, stop quitting. I could have been at my goal weight/body/whatever today if I would have not quit, got bored, got lazy, or got un-motivated so many times this year.